Sue Vincent’s picture prompt once again challenges us… press here to join in or to read some fabulous responses..
Remnants of yesterdays bonfire smolder on the bank, barbed wire posts too damp to burn are propped at angles like skeletons legs. The wind whips my hair across pinkend cheeks, wipes drops from moist eyes as I trudge aimlessly across the empty landscape. A gnawing in my abdomen makes me tremble; my hands shake as I recognise my own emptiness.
An hour passes me by, legs heavy and joints begin to ache as I work my way home. Lifting my foot to plant it firmly in the kissing gate where we stopped and kissed last night; the irony of it makes my lips twitch and my chest tight. In the emptiness I succumb to tears; self indulging, long overdue by my reckoning.
Last night around the fire we had talked, loved and hoped. We hoped that three weeks late was a sign, we had held each other tight, talked until wishes were invisible to the moon.
This morning I woke to his whistles as he cycled to work. A fleeting smile at my lips soon vanished as the dull drag in my gut became apparent. Tonight I will have to tell him we were wrong. Smoothing my palm over my cheeks I take a deep breath, kick off my boots and straighten my back. Today will go so quickly here in the empty.
Oh dear…
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This unfortunately is timeless and still its relevance stings today, as one in five are failled pregnancies. A huge amount of tears.
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Such beautiful writing, Ellen, and such a poignant piece. Something so many women can relate to, I think, but so exquisitely told. 😊
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Nice to have a visit and your kind words are the topping on the dream. Evoking emotion with my writing is the one thing I always strive for. Unfortunately the “Empty” effects many more women than we realise.
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Its the truth. It’s why you won the writing competition. You have a real talent with words.
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But is it enough? Publishing a book at least the traditional way seems more about who you are, what self story the Author has. What happened to promote the work for it’s integrity, not make the writer the celebrity.
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That is very true. But sadly celebrity is easier to sell.
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*rubs chin* Erica Row found celebrity… “maybeee naaahhh. ” Then I will have to be satified with the readers I get.
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Well nobody gets anywhere by not trying, that’s for sure. Who knows whose turn it will be next? 😉
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Streaking at a rugby match would just make onlookers nauseous besides it’s been done. *wink wink*
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Hahaha! Why not? Make sure you carry a copy of your book and have some business cards handy to give out. 😊
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Aww does he belong to another ? Will he stay or will he go? Is this a gift or a curse. So sad.
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Life can change in an instant. Thank you for reading.
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So true
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So sad and full of desolation and disappointment, Ellen, but beautifully written.
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I am glad you came and I am thrilled you left such a lovely comment. Have a super week. 😇
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Thank you. X
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Aaww Ellen, this is a sad and a true story for many. I think I know how it feels, sometimes you wait and wait till you give up a little thinking that may help if you ignored it. Then again it returns very soon, making you feel sad and empty all over again.
Thank you Ellen.
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Thank you for reading and commenting.
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My pleasure dear Ellen.
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You captured the elation and the desolation of wanting motherhood and the heartbreak of yet another month going by without fulfillment.
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Thank you Bernadette.
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Simply awesome!! Great writing…
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Thank you and I am pleased to have you visit. Come back for more soon. 😇
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I will be back more often…your writing touches my soul…I feel a kinship in your words
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What a super comment thank you?
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You are very welcome!!
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A beautiful poignant story. Sadly some of us are not destined to be mothers.
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But make wonderful aunts and fabulous babysitters. 😇
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Absolutely 😊
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This is so touching… and a familiar tale to me… before I finally was blessed xxx
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familiar to many talked about rarely.
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Ah, such a sad tale, Ellen x
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As life can be.
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Indeed. I remember this scenario all too well myself.
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It is peculiar how so many experience this… but when its you… you feel as if your’e the only one….
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It is not an easy one to share, but every month can be a very real grief.
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Yes and there seems as if there’s no escape from the pregnant women and prams.
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Oh you notice them far more when you live in that hope! It took seven years of such months…but when the time was right, my eldest son made his appearance. And three years later, his brother.
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We forget children are a gift, not a rite.
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And they remain so, lifelong.
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