To make it through this year, as I am determined to do. I will strive to fight. The statement to show how I will get to the final day of this extraordinary year, Is “Ellen, Perseveres.” That is my intention.
Wearing an anti covid-19 mask,
I vow to set myself the task
that each day from now until then.
I will rise above the parapet
and repeat it time and again,
until it rings in my ears
and all can see,
she persevere’s.
The last few months I have folded myself into a the smallest space. Closed my eyes and hid, I have begun to surrender to the empty. I feel me fade away as if a smudged pencil sketch. My shape is real enough, my face still there. The essence of me is fading … it feels like whisps, or steam from a cup of tea on a cold day. Not quite sure you saw it slipping silently away. The person that is left is no longer curious enough to find out. So it will be a case of finding … me.
My intention is to learn something new. Today, I signed up to an online class. Together, we the group, will learn how to write and produce an audio play, with the Theatre Royal in Bury St Edmunds. I have also pledged to find myself within the words I write. To see it through, to excel the best way I can. Lock down and health issues have taken their toll, but not any more. Ellen will come through, As I Pledge to persevere.
I want to thank my blogging friend who encouraged me to set an intention and commit to it. https://youcanalwaysstartnow.wordpress.com/2020/09/14/setting-an-intention/
“If you were to chose a word to help you through the last four months, to inspire or motivate what would it be and why?” leave it in the comments I would love to chat.
Excellent! See -you could do Excellent Ellen as well. So many possibilities.
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Thank you, I have embraced it all and persevered so far so good. Not excellent Ellen but giving it a pretty good shot. 😇😉
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It is a tough time, Ellen. I am glad you are taking positive steps to change the way you feel. BTW, Jessica Bakkers has specifically mentioned your short story, My Scared, in her review of Nightmareland.
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Thank you for your lovely comment. I will lookout for that review x
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I am so proud to be part of your community. You have this – the on-line course sounds fabulous. Jealous. Let me know what I can do. Check in? Accountability whatever you need. We have this. 2020 you will count for something positive.
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A fb messenger prompt to remind me to keep persevering would be great, I chose a big one, writing an hour and a half radio play and playing some of the parts … 🙄🤔 what have I done 😀
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My word would be TRUST.
Trust that this to shall pass.
Ellen, your writing is already good. Trust that you will achieve anything you want.
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Thank you. Trust and perseverance will always work well together even when things challenge us. Xx
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Ellen I love your wonderful post. I am willing you on as always! You’ve been ill been afraid and now you are ready to be counted! I have a song for you
It’s Brave and that’s what you are! I think I need to use brave too. We’ve had death due to Covid, I have been ill, in and out of hospital since June. Still waiting for an operation. I even had to wear a cholosectomy drain for three months! And it Nearly October and I am still waiting for an operation date. We had family troubles and triumph. Yes let’s be brave 💜💜💜💜
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Brave is the best word to be, Your troubles will ease as long as we persevere with being brave. X Thank you for sharing Willow you should commit to your word with intention, it is surprisingly reaffirming once you press post. Good luck Willow.
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Thank you Ellen , I shall have to check that out Ellen . You be brave too 💜
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My word would be hope.
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Well we must always have that xx thank you for coming.
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The only word I can think of is ‘endure’. It’s what we’ll all have to do for the foreseeable future! Good luck with your course, Ellen.
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Thank you Stevie, we ought to have another meet up once this is over.
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Sure, if it ever is over! I went out to lunch with a friend to the Pennoyer Centre at Pulham St. Margaret today. It all seemed quite normal until the fumigation part when a customer left, lol!
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